I remember sitting on my lanai one day, having a totally serious conversation about buying extra beans and rice and other easy-to-store foods in case we needed to use it to trade for our safety or to bribe our way out of being assaulted.
He was sure there were going to be serious riots because of money, food, and supply shortages and that it was going to turn into armageddon within weeks.
I was supposed to have surgery that would have me laid up in bed for a few months and I was scared - how would I protect myself and my home.
So before things got real bad, I was admitted to the hospital, hoping I would get my surgery and recover enough in time for when I might have to fight for my life.
It seems ridiculous now, but we were freaked the F out and it is where we thought things were heading.
MY main concern was prepping to have enough food. I stocked my pantry, my fridge, my freeze, and all of my cabinets. I actually still eating from my prep stash from a year ago!
I am happy this apocalypse that we expected to happen didn’t but what has happened is the breakdown of spirit - around the world, in every country, every town, and almost every house. Which could lead to our worst nightmare.
Man-o-man, it has been a rough year.
On top of it all, I just lost my father a few weeks ago so I have a whole new tangle of emotions to sort through along with the physical matters of his estate and going through all of our sentimental things from the time I was born. I’m dealing with most of it alone or with limited support compared to how it may have been prior to the virus.
And I know I am not the only one with this experience.
The stress and isolation have taken a toll on so many of us.
Life was feeling stressful enough as it was and then this mega wrench got thrown in.
The most important thing I have gained from the experience is adding in heaps of self-care, lots of rest, filling myself up with things that do bring me peaceful feelings.
Not all of it brings me joy but I put the effort in even when it feels difficult because I know I am investing in my future self too.
Who knows what could happen next?!
One of the most useful things I have found from this whole situation is how quickly one can notice and identify their negative beliefs. Because we are being triggered so much, by so many things the core wounds and subconscious beliefs are quicker to come to the surface (and usually in a dramatic form so they are harder to miss).
This is great because when we can see them we can do the work we need to dis-create them permanently.
For the person, like me who lives alone, works from home and doesn’t have a lot of family or friends around. I am stuck inside more so I have a tendency to get bored or lonely because I can’t go out and distract myself like I probably did a year or two ago.
Now, when I feel lonely, I can keep searching to see what else I am feeling - do I overwork, do I escape in tv, dissociate or avoid? do I reach out to people, do I think people will want to hear from me if I do reach out?
And why is it good to dig into all of this and try to understand these feelings?
Because once you can find the one that is causing the most discomfort you can dis-create that belief and no longer feel the discomfort it caused.
And why is that useful?
Because if the belief no longer exists, you will no longer be triggered by the things that trigger it. The belief will no longer have power as it had in the past.
Here’s a quick example of what I mean:
If you feel strongly about something and those around you challenge you or insult you and you question yourself or shy away from speaking your mind that is likely because a negative belief is stopping you.
On the other hand, if you are right about something, feel so strong and confident about it that even if someone says you are an idiot, that you don’t know what you are talking about it doesn’t bother you, you likely don’t have any negative beliefs around the topic.
A great practice is to find and release or dis-create the beliefs that hold us back, keep us quiet and standing up for ourselves or what we believe in.
Finding the beliefs is not always easy to do alone because you are in the thick of it. This is where I come in. And not only that, I can help you dis-create it too. So the limiting thoughts or that nasty inner critic won’t have as much to say anymore.
And coming back to the beginning, the circumstances due to the virus have made my job even easier which means we will have even more time to spend on the actual dis-creation process and reprogramming or installing your new powerful positive beliefs
Want to uncover the belief that is holding you back the most? Reach out.
♡Heather
